Wednesday, February 11, 2009
**THIS IS YOUR WARNING - - Read at your own risk! I'm feeling a bit sappy tonight. (The first 10 or so songs on my playlist should tell you that).
Lately I've had a few people ask me if I'm still alive because I've had a severe halt in my blog activity. Yes, I'm still here! I haven't blogged in awhile because of obvious reason #1 - I still have not purchased a camera. Simple. I love to blog about pictures. It just makes everything real.
And the harder to admit Reason #2 - I haven't blogged lately because quite frankly I don't think I could have and stayed positive. And heaven knows I don't want to be the downer in your day! Those of you who have young children or have had at some point in your life might be able to relate. Let me just cut to the chase. I am a mom to two fabulous, beautiful children who are close to sending me to the funny farm! No, really...I'm ok...seriously. It's just that when you have days when your 13 year old dog "runny poops" all over one of two carpeted rooms in your house, your son tips over an entire humidifier with dirty water on the second carpeted room in your house (as you're cleaning up mess #1), your favorite brown shag area rug is at the carpet cleaners already this week because you and your kids tracked in dog poop from outside, and once again a half roll of toilet paper clogs up the toilet...you start wondering, "Am I really making a difference here?" That's really what this is all about, after all. I want to make a difference. I want to raise kids who love the Lord, who love others, know how to treat people with respect, know that we don't run in the house or call each other "poopy face" or "poopy clock" (Mason's newest coined phrase)...you know, the normal things in life. I just realized today that I have been a stay-at-home mom for almost 5 years. I can't hardly believe it. I have ALWAYS known I wanted to be a mom. ALWAYS. That was my life's passion. So now that I'm here, I want to enjoy it. That sounds so cliche, but it's a lot harder than you might think. Sure, there are days when I enjoy my children, but more days show up where I feel like all I'm doing is correcting them, discipling, putting tabasco in their mouths for talking back (thanks Mom & Anna!) or just plain losing it! I am going to freak out when Reese is in school all day every day next year, so why is it that when she asks me to play Candy Land or doll house with her that I want to run far, far away? I should WANT to do that stuff, right? What is wrong with me? So my prayer this week is to S-L-O-W down and enjoy my sweet, precious babies. I love them more than life and they deserve that. So if you're a mom reading this, be encouraged as I have been this week by so many. These years go by way too fast and we really do need to enjoy every single minute. After all, they are only gifts that can be taken away at any time. Let's not have any regrets. No regrets. Now, go give your kid a hug. GO!
Nehemiah 8:10 ...For the Joy of the Lord is your strength